There are things in life that you just could never imagine happening to you. Nothing can prepare you for the unimaginable. When these occurrences happen, it is easy to fall victim to the "I woulda, shoulda, coulda..." rabbit hole. Trapping you in a vicious cycle of samsara (duality) that leads you to nowhere but guilt and suffering.

Or, many take the other route of self righteousness, choosing blame and projection to protect their own egos and pride from becoming triggered. Protecting themselves from the pain of self awareness and accountability.

Always validating being RIGHT over being happy.

The veil, giving you a bump of serotonin that momentarily gives you the sense of peace and relaxation in your body that frees you from the hurt you feel in your heart as the demons from your brain come knocking on your door. The brain then creates a story to reinforce your belief that you are a victim of life and circumstance and there is some external factor that has power over your well being and ability to experience pure everlasting joy and bliss.

This internal battle of psychosis then creates vices, addictions, habits, depression, anxiety, and reliances of a plethora of things that blanket the real problem, the only problem, the lack of self love and acceptance. Of course, rather than admitting to the lack of feeling not accepted, we attempt to convince others to buy our stories through gossip, fighting, war, strife, to justify that our beliefs and opinions actually matter. And if the other party doesn't buy into your story, they are then casted out, creating division, loneliness, isolation, hurt, and pain. Made wrong for not petting your precious little ego. While you surround yourself with people who satiate your hunger for being right.

NEVER EVER allowing yourself to break free from the shackles of suffering. Continuing to find ways to cope with the unimaginable and playing victim to life, but never seeing that you are trapped in a cycle of victimhood. Because your control mechanisms kick in, whispering in your ear that you can actually control the situation. Because having more control, leads to having power. RIGHT? Aaaaaaaaaand therefore, the cycle of samsara continues.

Never realizing that the unimaginable is really just the projection of your Soul attempting to get you to see that you have absolutely no control. And until you tire out from running around in circles, chasing your tail thinking you'll find answers by creating ways to control outcomes, you'll never really experience the unimaginable...

That there was never any need to run. The thing you thought was unimaginable, being happy, can only be found when you are still. Surrendered. In a place of trust that God had your back the entire time. Wiping away those tears and sending in reinforcements to get you to realize that YOU were the only thing you feared. That YOU have all the power in the world if you could only stop for a moment to see that the love and acceptance you seek, was chasing you the entire time.