Why does it feel like I always get overlooked

Why can’t I catch a break

Do you love others more than me?

What did I do to deserve this?

Was it in this lifetime or another?

Is this the price I must pay for my sins?

Accumulated karma?

I know I have not always been perfect

But I do my best to do better each and every day

I can’t take back my past

I wish I could

But I seriously didn’t know any better at the time

I acted out in many ways due to anger and pain

I encased my heart so it could stop feeling hurt

Misused and abused

I never truly meant to hurt anybody

I just didn’t know

Are you even listening to me?

Am I talking to myself again?

I feel nothing but emptiness

Loneliness

I can’t hear your voice

My life seems to be falling apart

Oh Lord have you forsaken me?

My Dear Child

Do not weep

As I hear every word and see every tear

Of course I have not forsaken you

My little lamb

Whenever you become lost I will go search for you

You are my blood

You are my breath

You are my perfect creation

You may not understand the trials and tribulations I have laid before you

Life on this planet was never prophesied to be easy

However I did promise if you seek first the Kingdom of Heaven

Heaven will find you here

But first you must be a faithful student

Faith is not tested during times of good

Faith is found in famine, hurt, pain, and uncertainty

Anyone can proclaim their faith

Look at all the religions that claim their righteous seat at the throne

Reading from a book

Imbibing nothing

Words without intentionality

Are like food without nurishment

Empty calories for the soul

My dearly Beloved

I am with you always

Guiding you to find the love and peace you are truly seeking

Once you discover you no longer need external validation

And realize that everything you have ever needed is found inside your heart

The true Kingdom of Heaven is within you

Melt the ice that has been running in your veins

I cannot promise you there will never be any challenges

I would never lie to you

But I promise you

I will never leave you

Once you align your will with mine

Your suffering will come to an end

Diamonds are made under pressure

The most valuable assets in the world are rare finds

My child you are a rare breed

Many will seek

But few will find

Always know you have what it takes

You are Chosen

Keep your eyes on me and you will never be lost or forsaken