To those that desired to shut me down

Thank you for not believing in me

I owe all my success to you

You lit a fire under my ass to prove you all wrong

Thank you for all your lies about me

It led me to write truths about you

Thank you for the inspiration

For my art

My books

My poetry

Thank you for calling me a fraud

A Joke

Funny how the joke is now on you

Thank you for calling me fat and ugly

It made me recognize my own beauty

Thank you for abandoning me

Rejecting me

It made me realize the security in my own solitude

You taught me to break away from codependent relationships

Thank you for not loving me

It forced me to love myself

Thank you for the abuse and torment

You helped to recognize my immense value

Thank you for the gossip and backstabbing

It taught me to trust in the laws of retribution

Thank you for kicking me while I was down

You molded a fighter

Thank you for telling me I talk too much

You made a speaker

A powerful one at that

Thank you for your jealousy

It made me realize my power

Thank you for competing with me

It showed me I was the one to be looked up to

Thank you for shutting me down

For diminishing me

For controlling me

For telling me I was nothing without you

You put me on the streets

Treated me like trash

A piece of garbage

Made me feel like I was worthless

Like my life did not matter

I’ll admit there was a time I fell for your lies

I hurt immensely attempting to find my purpose in this world

You made me feel like I didn’t belong

Casted me out

Alienated me

Laughed in my face at the perception of my failures

But what you didn’t know I was in on it the whole damn time

I called you into my life to make me a fucking warrior

A beast

A Phoenix

And you played right into my hand

Thank you for bringing me home

Allowing me to come in to full power

Guiding me to God/Allah

So I can claim my worthiness

So I can watch you all now self destruct

As you watch me rise from the flames you called hell

Hmm….

You molded me into the woman I am today

Without you, I wouldn’t be me

As I stare into your envious eyes

My only wish is to destroy your hate and fear

But not with a blade or a bullet

Those are toys for the foolish

I will destroy you with love I found in myself

Hand in hand with my Beloved

The one you said I would never meet

Remember when you asked me why I couldn’t keep a man

Well, that’s because I have high standards

I would never settle for the sake of companionship

No I am not intimidating or picky

I held out because I know I deserve the best

So I thank you for driving me into the arms of my one and only

Me, Myself, and God